"I choose to make it into gold."

I'm happy.
Man, that is so satisfying to say and mean it.
I am not entirely sure where I'm going in life, but who is and how could anyone really be? I have only a vague direction, but I think it's the right one. I want to help people. I feel certain this is what I want to do with my life. It's what has always been behind anything else I've ever thought about pursuing. Sometimes that goal has been more subtle, but it's always been my driving force, my desire, my goal. I want to help people, I want to be good to people, I want to be a positive force in every life I touch. I went through a pretty bad and confused period and I was selfish. It was my existential crisis, and I guess probably something I needed to go through. But it has only served to make me more sure than ever that, whatever I do, it's got to be for the good of those around me. I know what I don't want to be, and I'm glad for that. I'm in a good place right now. It was messy getting here, and I have a lot more work to do, but I'm very grateful for the people in my life and the things I've been through and everyone that has ever believed in me, and everyone that continues to do so and encourages me.

I have wonderful friends, wonderful family, and a wonderful boyfriend. The boyfriend is fairly new, three months. But we've known each other longer and I don't think either of us were mature enough before to be in this. But we are now, and it's good. It's really good. Though I know it won't be easy, I really hope we can make it last. We're good for each other.

"And I'm thankful for my present day, it just got here so please don't go away. I finally learned it's what I choose to make, and I choose to make it into gold."